Cold Feet Before College
Is it just me or has anyone else felt cold feet before going away somewhere for a long time? Whether it be for work, school, or anything big for that matter. Does anyone else feel like they might be doing the wrong thing and have some sort of jitters?
I’m back home for the summer and in a few days I’ll be going back up to school. Yes, there have been moments both here and there that make me question staying, but in my heart I know it’s worth it to experience the lows in order to experience the highs. At the same time, I feel so relieved to be back home and not have to stress about grades, friends, and keeping up in the rat race. It’s such a relief to not have to think those things.
There’s also the feeling of not being here long enough. I don’t regret many things like choosing where I go to school, but I do regret not reconnecting with anyone and having meaningful connections to look back on. This past summer has felt like such a blur and it’s like I never got to do anything.
Obviously, the vacation has to end at some point, and I’m glad I did so I don’t feel like this any longer. But the cold feet still lingers behind as I leave for another year and grow distant from the community I grew up in.
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